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8月14日 恩,即将出发 一个假期都没在博客上好好写点什么,一转眼,却到了和天津说个短暂的再见的时候了。 对生我养我的故乡天津,老实说,我确实没多少好感,但在临别时刻再去挖苦讽刺一番,也着实没什么意义。以前面对这座“肮脏”的城市总想着逃离,现在想想当初“逃离”的想法真的可笑,况且,换个环境,又怎么知道不会是“不过如此”呢? 22号去北京,比起南方的那些朋友算是出发的晚的,好在两座城市距离很近,没必要提前动身。27号到下月17号,为期三周的军训生活,不出意外的话应该跟这个blog短暂告别一段时间,或者是长期告别也说不定。在搞清手机上网之前,也会在网上消失一段时间。 别的话也不必多说了罢,哥们里我是报道最早的一位,算是提前为来北京的同学探探道。 最后再向各位同学说声再见吧。北广某人和中财某人到北京别忘了找我啊,我请你们吃食堂。对北邮的某同学的话,就不在说了。。 ps1.刚才看了某些同学在blog对我的链接以及评论,总感觉里面积极的评价实在过誉,本人承受不起,不过如果是对我的鞭策的话,我会不断向那些方向努力。 ps2.在北京由于暂时不让带电脑,听歌会是个很棘手的问题。我现在计划正式开始cd机+淘碟的生活,不知各位有何建议。另,cd随身听已退出市场,不知道在村里能否淘到像样的机器。 8月11日 Jealous Guy by John LennonI was dreaming of the past And my heart was beating fast I began to lose control I began to lose control I didnt mean to hurt you Im sorry that I made you cry Oh no, I didnt want to hurt you Im just a jealous guy I was feeling insecure You might not love me anymore I was shivering inside I was shivering inside I didnt mean to hurt you Im sorry that I made you cry Oh no, I didnt want to hurt you Im just a jealous guy I didnt mean to hurt you Im sorry that I made you cry Oh no, I didnt want to hurt you Im just a jealous guy I was trying to catch your eyes Thought that you was trying to hide I was swallowing my pain I was swallowing my pain I didnt mean to hurt you Im sorry that I made you cry Oh no, I didnt want to hurt you Im just a jealous guy, watch out Im just a jealous guy, look out babe Im just a jealous guy I say:Er..To what degree can a woman changes a man? Just take a look at Yoko xxx... ps.Can't watch Premiership League any more... 8月6日 Song for my girl on journeyWell the sun is surely sinking down But the moon is slowly rising So this old world must still be spinning 'round And I still love you (chorus) So close your eyes You can close your eyes, it's all right I don't know no love songs And I can't sing the blues anymore But I can sing this song And you can sing this song When I'm gone It won't be long before another day We gonna have a good time And no one's gonna take that time away You can stay as long as you like Jenny Wren by Sir Paul McCartneyLike so many girls, Jenny Wren could sing
But a broken heart, took her soul away Like the other girls, Jenny Wren took wing She could see the world, and it's foolish ways How, we, spend our days, casting, love aside Loosing, site of life, day, by, day She saw poverty, breaking all the home Wounded warriors, took her song away [Solo] But the day will come, Jenny Wren will sing When this broken world, mends its foolish ways Now we, spend our days, catching, up on life All because of you, Jenny Wren 8月2日 Bluetooth vs. Wi-Fi in networkingTo find out the definition of Wi-Fi, I searched the wikipedia,then I found this: Bluetooth and Wi-Fi both have their places in today's offices, homes, and on the move: setting up networks, printing, or transferring presentations and files from PDAs to computers. Bluetooth Bluetooth is implemented in a variety of new products such as phones, printers, modems, and headsets. Bluetooth is acceptable for situations when two or more devices are in proximity to each other and don't require high bandwidth. Bluetooth is most commonly used with phones and hand-held computing devices, either using a Bluetooth headset or transferring files from phones/PDAs to computers. Bluetooth also simplifies the discovery and setup of services. Bluetooth devices advertise all services they provide. This makes the utility of the service that much more accessible, without the need to worry about network addresses, permissions and all the other considerations that go with typical networks. Wi-Fi Wi-Fi is more analogous to the traditional Ethernet network and requires configuration to set up shared resources, transmit files, set up audio links (for example, headsets and hands-free devices). It uses the same radio frequencies as Bluetooth, but with higher power output resulting in a stronger connection. Wi-Fi is sometimes called "wireless Ethernet." Although this description is inaccurate, it provides an indication of its relative strengths and weaknesses. Wi-Fi requires more setup, but is better suited for operating full-scale networks because it enables a faster connection, better range from the base station, and better security than Bluetooth. One method for comparing the efficiency of wireless transmission protocols such as Bluetooth and Wi-Fi is spatial capacity, or bits per second per square meter. 8月1日 Why I lose the passion of chatterin' on my blog?When you get a girl to chat with..And no big things to complain about..And no easy accessment to the net..And two or more books to read..And no heartbreaking incidents..And no new CDs to devour(new word,I use it to describe my excitement of enjoying the masterpieces..Not meaning I'm a plastic eater)..And some friends keepin' writing nonsensical words on their blogs..And the Hollywood shit-like blockbusters to watch..And my new fxckin' so called hi-tech cellphone to play..And the "sleeping 12 hrs per day" project to work on... How can I find time to killing time on my blog? And what else reason can still drive me to keep my blog? ps.To my girl: I make the link to your blog once you tell me the address..But later I deleted..I'll tell you why..Hopefully you don't get angry..But if you do,please forgive me.. Funny thing I guess...Nobody, I suppose, have found that the title of my blog WAS turned into "jewkiler's web diary",including me. I SWEAR that I've never changed this title by myself.. So...Is it for the immense development of the AI of this blogengine or some guy from the ms corporation happened to see my blog and change the title? Maybe both... Then, I have to tell the machine that "It's no more than a name.." And you'll never know how this immature boy ,an anti-Nazism guy get this name for himself... 7月26日 Mannish BoyOh yeah, yeah Oh yes Everything gonna be alright Oh yeah, yeah Now when I was a young boy At the age of five My mother said I'll be The greatest man alive And now I'm a man I'm over twenty-one You better believe me, baby And I'll say, we can have lots of fun I'm a man Huh huh huh huh huh A man Oh yeah Oh yeah (oh yeah) Oh yeah The line I shoot Will never miss And when I make love to you baby You just can't resist Ooh, ain't that man Spelled "M" "A" child "N" No "B" "O" child "Y" That spell mannish boy I'm a man A man I'm a man I'm a man I sittin' on the outside Just me and my mate I made the move Come up two hours late Ain't that a man No "B" "O" child "Y" That spell mannish boy I'm a man I'm a man I'm a full grown man, baby Oh yeah, oh yeah Oh yeah, oh yeah All you pretty women Stand in line I make love with you baby In an hour's time I'm a man I'm a man Oh yeah (oh yeah) Oh yeah (oh yeah) ps1.Recently I kept tryin' to throw light on sth. really confusing which annoyed me for several days..So I haven't even login my blog these days.. ps2.Someone told me sth. about the so-called GRE..Actually it confused me..Bought a word list of GRE..And it far beyond my current level.. ps3.Set a new label in honor of the R.S. 7月10日 I Don't Mind If You Forget Me by MorrisseyI dont mind I dont mind if you forget me Having learned my lesson I never left an impression on anyone So now you send me your hardened regards When once youd send me love Sincerely I must tell you Your mild best wishes They make me suspicious I dont mind I dont mind if you forget me Having learned my lesson I never left an impression on anyone The pressure to change, to move on Was strange And very strong So this is why I tell you I really do understand Bye bye I dont mind if you forget me No no no no no no no You can only be strong for so long It may not eat you but it will beat you So this is why I tell you I really dont understand This time Rejection is one thing But rejection from a fool Is cruel Rejection is one thing But rejection from a fool Is cruel And I dont mind if you forget me I dont mind if you forget me 听莫大爷的歌一定要看歌词。太有意思了。。 7月8日 A Sweet ReunionMeeting my girl in front of my school.. Greeting my father and mother "in-law".. They treated me as a kid... Quite strange,though i'm a kid anyway.. Watching the Brazilian raping the Chileans in the "Copa America" Having lunch in a Guangdong restaurant.. Too nervous to leave a good impression on them.. Oh..That's my style..that's my style... Holding my girl in my arms... Kissing my girl on her cheek.. Feeling it's sooo sweet to be a "kid".. And so sweet was the reunion that I'm already starting to look forward to another one... 7月7日 月之暗面![]() The Dark Side of the Moon Produced by Pink Floyd 也许你永远也不会发现,但它们确实存在着。 ——引子 暑假生活的无聊让我决定干些有“意义”的事情,我开始翻听那些我曾经熟悉抑或不熟悉的专辑,我说不清楚这张算是我熟悉的还是不熟悉的——里面的每一首歌,我都听了很多遍,但我却始终没弄明白平客要说些什么。 阴郁的起始——Speak To Me 给自己一个喘息的机会——Breathe Run, rabbit run. 坦白地说,我不知道“呼吸”在说些什么,是"Leave but don't leave me"的无助还是"You race towards an early grave"的绝望。最终,我选择了上面那一段。工作的压力,压得我们暗无天日,压得我们无法呼吸,压得我们眼看生命如此空虚地流逝却无能为力。高中刚过,就要为自己设立更远大的目标,这难道不是"mad"吗,为什么不给自己一个喘息的机会?因为"All you touch and all you see is all your life will ever be"。 不可预知的恐惧——On the Run "Live for today, gone tomorrow, that's me, HaHaHaaaaaa!" 我不知道有什么能比Air Crash更能诠释这句歌词,当你要传达一种概念时,lyrics并不是唯一的选择。 无可阻挡的流逝——Time "You are young and life is long and there is time to kill today. 开始的钟声和闹铃声已经能说明一切。这是我最喜欢的一首歌,因为它的旋律,因为它所谓“励志”的歌词。当然,我从没有停止过kill time。然后,我渐渐发现也许是我误解了:它强调的只是一种大众的生存状态,荒废青春,恐惧死亡。"Kicking around on a piece of ground in your home town,Waiting for someone or something to show you the way. "很可惜,我们总是难以寻找到自己的方向,方向都未知,发令枪,还有什么存在的意义呢? 恐惧?恐惧!——The Great Gig in the Sky "And I am not frightened of dying, any time will do, I 音乐和Clare Torry那个如死前哀鸣般的背景音背叛了这句歌词。尽管是每个人都必经的状态,但,谁又会一点都不恐惧呢?当哀鸣变成呻吟,呻吟变成喘息,是结束的时候了。 物欲,永无休止——Money "Money, it's a crime. 音效的运用在这里达到了与音乐本身合一的境界。我不知为何要把这首歌与象征无休止工作的Breathe割裂开,或许,无休止的物质追求,已经比死亡更可怕了?钱是不是root of all evil,谁说得清呢?我倒想知道,如果不是钱的驱动,这张伟大的专辑,会诞生吗?呵呵,以钱为武器攻击钱,也许只有艺术家和闲得难受的人才会做吧? 战争 分裂——Us and Them "With, without. 我们总喜欢拉帮结派,文化、语言、肤色的差异让我们很自然的分割,而其实在每一个有多个人存在的小集体里,都会存在分裂,以及“战争”,最早的战争是资源上的,我们把能和自己分享资源或者值得和我们分享的人视作"us",而今,精神上的分裂,也许比物质的分裂更彻底,不同政见,不同信仰,不同阶级……也许和平总是暂时的,而战争,或者说竞争,才是永恒的。 Lunatic,唯一的清醒者——Brain Damage "And if the cloud bursts, thunder in your ear 所谓的狂人,也许就像瘸腿村里的正常人一样,清醒,却要承受嘲笑。到这里,我想,月之暗面,也许是常人无法企及的境界,一种不被理解的精神状态。 蚀——Eclipse "There is no dark side of the moon, really. As a matter of fact, it's all dark. The only thing that makes it look light is the sun." 终于到了谢幕的时候了。我不知这最后一句是什么意思,我猜:也许每个人呈现给别人的,是你阳光下的那一面,而月亮总有阴暗的地方,阳光,也会有被地球遮挡的时候,人的本质,连他自己,都无法完全看清楚。《月之暗面》的主题到底是什么,我说不清楚,我听到了恐惧,听到了人性的丑陋,却也听到了希望。人的存在,便伴随着阴暗,有人性本身的阴暗,也有命运对人的阴暗,当我们把这一切都看清楚时,也许,就如Lunatic般,由清醒,变为癫狂。 I will see you on the dark side of the moon. 我们听歌的时候,总想挖掘它深层次的东西,而实际上真的有那么多深层次的东西可挖吗。于是,牵强附会以致贻笑大方。我说的,只是我的感受,就像歌者在歌曲中融入了自己的感受一样,我也在听歌时融入了自己的感受。权当是一种尝试吧。 7月3日 征影友人数不限,性别不限。 愿和本人去影院看<Transformers>和<Harry Potter5>中至少一部的请留言。 要求: 带足AA制所需RMB 无看电影时说话(尤其是对电影本身评头论足)、吃东西等不良嗜好 能坚持2小时不睡着 7月1日 Baby When I Call Your NameOh baby I When I call you darlin' I will never lose my way I don't have to worry honey Cause you were there from the start We were both two kids living on youth Life's what happened to us baby While we're busy making plans Maybe one reason I can fly this changing sky Is you have always been there by my side Baby when I call your name [Don't you know that] I will never be alone Baby when I call your name [Don't' you know that] I will never feel alone Oh yea The night comes and we've been holding on so long You don't have to worry honey Cause I was there from the start Little things we said You know they will turn out right Oh darlin' our love is written by the stars You know I'll keep searching in the dark For just baby, just one more light Hey honey ours is shining brightest tonight Baby when I call your name [Don't you know that] I will never be alone Baby when I call your name, no [Don't you know that] I will never feel alone Just a little closer baby now You and I forever and a day This is the sweetest life Just a little closer baby now When I'm holding you in my arms And we know that love is right Don't ever worry, don't ever change Don't you ever be lonely [Don't ever be lonely] Baby when I call your name [Don't you know that] I will never be alone Baby when I call your name [Don't you know that] I will never feel alone I will never be alone When the night comes and we've been holding on so long [When I call you darlin'] Baby when I call your name [Don't you know that] I will never be alone when I call you darlin I will never, never be alone [Baby when I call your name] Ooh. 6月29日 我的高三谨以此文献给我的朋友,我的老师,我的马上以及我自己。 这不是对高中的总结,甚至不是对高三的总结,我只是说我想说的,那些杂乱的,缺乏文采的,流水账般的,有SC特色的。所以我相信,能从头到尾看完的,也许只有一个人。 我的高三是从痛苦中开始的,06年的7月初。不过和大多数人的不一样。 高二伊始gzx同学那句被我视为幼稚可笑的话,随后不幸在我身上应验,然后开始了幼稚而不可笑的一段经历,那一段感觉真是棒极了,精神亢奋,仿佛有用不完的精力,天天充满激情和希望,学习成绩突然从班里10名开外(不过我从没认为这就是我的真正水平)窜升到第1。这种High的状态一直持续到06年的4月底。突然一切都变了,波澜……直到去年的7月,一切才刚刚开始。当然其中的原因一部分我明白,一部分我可能永远也明白不了。 痛不欲生吧,当时觉得,现在回想时也是。不过我有一个优良习惯——轻微的人格分裂,总之是白天的状态和晚上的想法完全不同,这让我白天可以若无其事的好好学习,然后是晚上,直到一个人闲得没事做时(通常到了晚上11点),才突然陷入痛苦的深渊——所以让我闲下来是一件很可怕的事。 有时候痛苦是件好事,我的亢奋状态竟然又回来了。高三开始的月考成绩,好像一次年级第二,一次第三——我们考试的排名,我好像是从高三才知道的,所以当时很兴奋,那种有我特点的兴奋,一种奇怪的平静的感觉。当时天真地想把我的喜悦对一个人说,万万没想到,得到的竟然是冷漠,漠不关心——高三这一年我“天真”了无数次,最近一次就是几天前,当然,结果是一样的,或者说越来越糟。 然后就是一年Routine,白天学习,晚上学习,深夜郁闷…… 假期,可能是别人发奋的时候吧,我还是那样,保持我的状态,每天上网,发信,作业,玩足球经理,还看完了一本扔在角落里的平装本《围城》。不过两个假期结束时,我都惊讶的发现,我做的东西并不比别人少——上次我这样发现时,也许要追溯到小学3年级了。 电脑,可能是大家早都疏远的吧,我记不清自己当时是怎样一种状态了。反正有一段是天天上网发信,写blog,几乎是天天,折腾到8点。原来每次有人问我这些,我这么回答时,总有人投来鄙夷我人格的目光,不过现在,我想至少他们的目光我看不到了——一个正常人,我想,是不需要通过标榜自己不学习来证明自己学习的强的。 作业,可能是同学用来相互攀比的吧。其实,在我们这群按时写作业的人堆里,多多少少是靠作业给自己心里安慰的,作的什么并不重要。这一点,可能每个过来人都深有体会。 高三不可能毫无波澜,我的最大的波澜出现在12月,自主招生,半年后又一次感到挫败。现在想想确实没什么,不过真正伤害我的不是那次面试,而是在我的班里,和班主任的那次对峙——还好,那种感觉我很熟悉;还好,这对当时的我并不是最大的痛苦。 如果换成很多人,那次经历,会让他发狠下决心考上清华的。我没有——我第一次认真考虑北大清华,是在高考过后的第二天。 但那次经历,却实实在在的给了我两个宝贵的财富:一是面对失败的勇气,让我面对班里第4的成绩,某些人的鄙视时还能毫不怀疑自己的实力;二是让我明白了,我的班主任是值得我尊重的。她竟然看透了我的本质,这一点很可怕。 我的第二个转折点在今年的3月19号。竟然有人喜欢我了——哪怕那个人是个男的,这个消息也够我兴奋一阵子的了,何况是我喜欢的马同学。从那时开始,我深夜郁闷的次数开始减少,直至消失。全新的感觉,全新的经历,而且我现在还在继续经历着。 随后的一切都那么自然,那么顺理成章。 …… 高考第一天,睡得不好,考得也不好。 高考第二天,睡得特好,考得更好。 …… 如果高考能教给我什么的话,那就是谋事在人,成事在天。 如果高三能教给我什么的话,那就是,人需要学会忍受,学会独自承受,学会接受现实。 我的高三已经结束,更多的险阻,还在前面。 更多的精彩,也在前方! 6月27日 Sounds Terrible计算机科学与技术专业介绍 计算机是当代信息科学与技术的重要支柱之一。本系的培养目标是为我国社会主义现代化建设培养从事计算机研究与应用的高级技术人才,促进我国信息化社会早日实现。 为了拓宽专业面,培养适应性更强的毕业生,我系本科只设一个专业: 计算机科学与技术专业。本系在对学生进行培养的全过程中注重计算机硬件与软件以及计算机应用的全面训练,强调科学理论与实际应用的相互结合,努力造就适应研究、设计和应用开发的"复合型"人才。 自1956年以来,本系逐步形成了一支从事计算机研究与教育、具备良好素质的师资队伍。本系目前有中国科学院院士、中国工程院院士3人,博士生导师33 人,教授41人,副教授39人。目前我系所覆盖的专业方向有:计算机系统结构、微型计算机系统、并行分布/处理与智能计算机系统、计算机软件、人工智能与 智能控制、计算机图形学及计算机辅助设计、计算机信息处理与应用、计算机设计自动化与计算机科学理论。作为科研基地并为学生提供实验教学条件,本系目前有 智能技术与系统国家实验室、计算机原理实验室、微型计算机实验室、计算机网络实验室、操作系统实验室、并行/分布处理实验室、计算机软件实验室、计算机辅 助设计实验室、计算机控制系统实验室、智能机器人实验室、计算机视觉实验室、计算机语言实验室等。此外还有许多国内外著名的计算机企业集团与我系共同组建 了设备先进的培训基地。良好的教学条件为每位同学在本科学习期间提供了上千小时的计算机训练与实践的机会,这就使得学生在具备坚实的理论基础的同时,也在 工程素质与独立工作能力方面得到了较好的训练。 近年来,本系的教育得到了社会各界的关注与有力支持,由他们及学校内部提供的各种奖学金多达20余种,用于奖励在学习及其他社会活动中作出成绩的同学。 计算机科学与技术专业的学生除了学习校定必修课外,还要学习高级语言程序设计、离散数学、数据结构、信号处理原理、系统分析与控制、数字逻辑、人工智能导 论、微计算机技术、操作系统、汇编语言程序设计、计算机原理、计算机系统结构、编译原理、计算机网络、专业英语阅读等专业基础课和专业课。根据学生的基础 与学习情况,系内要挑选10%的学生主修计算机科学理论学科方向。目前,本系设有计算机系统结构、计算机软件与理论、计算机应用技术三个研究生专业,以上 各专业均可授予硕士学位和博士学位,另外本系还设有计算机科学与技术博士后科研流动站。 历年来,本系的毕业生供不应求。每年毕业的同学均有60% - 70%免试进入研究生阶段的学习,攻读硕士或直接攻读博士学位。参加毕业分配的同学也都通过双向选择"找到了适合自己发挥所学之长的工作岗位。 再说一遍我不希望任何人翻我过去的blog内容,因为我不想关了这重开一个新的。 我不希望再看到有人看我过去写在这的东西。 6月22日 Just a perfect day
Perfect Day by Lou Reed Just a perfect day, Drink Sangria in the park, And then later, when it gets dark, We go home. Just a perfect day, Feed animals in the zoo Then later, a movie, too, And then home.
I'm glad I spent it with you. Oh such a perfect day, You just keep me hanging on, You just keep me hanging on.
Problems all left alone, Weekenders on our own. It's such fun. Just a perfect day, You made me forget myself. I thought I was someone else, Someone good.
I'm glad I spent it with you. Oh such a perfect day, You just keep me hanging on, You just keep me hanging on.
You're going to reap just what you sow, You're going to reap just what you sow,
You're going to reap just what you sow...
And Note(from Google):The blood-red color of this beverage inspired its name,
which is derived from the Spanish word for "blood." Sangria is made
with red wine, fruit juices, soda water, fruit and sometimes liqueurs
and brandy or cognac. Sangria blanco (white sangria) is made with white
wine. Both are served cold over ice and make a refreshing cooler on a
hot summer day. Maybe I'm not the perfect guy, but you are the perfect gal for me. Maybe it's not the perfect day for you or me, but it's the perfect day for you and me,together. No Sangria,no zoo,no movie. But the tasty soup,the garden,the book. You made me forget myself, forget all the unhappiness during the last 2 years, forget the exam, and even forget where we were, who I was. I was not someone else, I was and I am just the one for you. Just a perfect day, I'm glad I spent it with you. And you will reap what you sow, trust me, YOU WILL! (crazy words,I guess,but who cares?) |
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