你唱歌真难听，比枪花还难听…舍友如是说。ps.当时我在唱dylan的歌…

在网吧设置好博客…结果手机竟然有史以来第一次登录成功gmail…以后可以写博了…

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清华大学老校歌

西山苍苍，东海茫茫，吾校庄严，巍然中央，东西文化，荟萃一堂，大
同爰跻，祖国以光。莘莘学子来远方，莘莘学子来远方，春风化雨乐未
央，行健不息须自强。自强，自强，行健不息须自强！自强，自强，行
健不息须自强！
左图右史，邺架巍巍，致知穷理，学古探微，新旧和冶，殊途同归，肴
核仁义，闻道日肥。服膺守善心无违，服膺守善心无违，海能卑下众水
归，学问笃实生光辉。光辉，光辉，学问笃实生光辉！光辉，光辉，学
问笃实生光辉！
器识其先，文艺其从，立德立言，无问西东，孰介绍是，吾校之功，同
仁一视，泱泱大风。水木清华众秀钟，水木清华众秀钟，万悃如一矢以
忠，赫赫吾校名无穹。无穹，无穹，赫赫吾校名无穹！无穹，无穹，赫
赫吾校名无穹！


在这所学校呆了一个多月，有很多东西吸引着我，触动着我，但真正让我心潮澎湃的，却是这首在学校里难得一听的校歌。

快看不到了。。所以。。珍惜每一场的机会。。

  一个假期都没在博客上好好写点什么，一转眼，却到了和天津说个短暂的再见的时候了。
  对生我养我的故乡天津，老实说，我确实没多少好感，但在临别时刻再去挖苦讽刺一番，也着实没什么意义。以前面对这座“肮脏”的城市总想着逃离，现在想想当初“逃离”的想法真的可笑，况且，换个环境，又怎么知道不会是“不过如此”呢？
　22号去北京，比起南方的那些朋友算是出发的晚的，好在两座城市距离很近，没必要提前动身。27号到下月17号，为期三周的军训生活，不出意外的话应该跟这个blog短暂告别一段时间，或者是长期告别也说不定。在搞清手机上网之前，也会在网上消失一段时间。
  别的话也不必多说了罢，哥们里我是报道最早的一位，算是提前为来北京的同学探探道。
  最后再向各位同学说声再见吧。北广某人和中财某人到北京别忘了找我啊，我请你们吃食堂。对北邮的某同学的话，就不在说了。。
ps1.刚才看了某些同学在blog对我的链接以及评论，总感觉里面积极的评价实在过誉，本人承受不起，不过如果是对我的鞭策的话，我会不断向那些方向努力。
ps2.在北京由于暂时不让带电脑，听歌会是个很棘手的问题。我现在计划正式开始cd机+淘碟的生活，不知各位有何建议。另，cd随身听已退出市场，不知道在村里能否淘到像样的机器。

I was dreaming of the past
And my heart was beating fast
I began to lose control
I began to lose control
I didnt mean to hurt you
Im sorry that I made you cry
Oh no, I didnt want to hurt you
Im just a jealous guy

I was feeling insecure
You might not love me anymore
I was shivering inside
I was shivering inside

I didnt mean to hurt you
Im sorry that I made you cry
Oh no, I didnt want to hurt you
Im just a jealous guy

I didnt mean to hurt you
Im sorry that I made you cry
Oh no, I didnt want to hurt you
Im just a jealous guy

I was trying to catch your eyes
Thought that you was trying to hide
I was swallowing my pain
I was swallowing my pain

I didnt mean to hurt you
Im sorry that I made you cry
Oh no, I didnt want to hurt you
Im just a jealous guy, watch out
Im just a jealous guy, look out babe
Im just a jealous guy

I say:Er..To what degree can a woman changes a man? Just take a look at Yoko xxx...
ps.Can't watch Premiership League any more...

Well the sun is surely sinking down
But the moon is slowly rising
So this old world must still be spinning 'round
And I still love you

(chorus)
So close your eyes
You can close your eyes, it's all right
I don't know no love songs
And I can't sing the blues anymore
But I can sing this song
And you can sing this song
When I'm gone

It won't be long before another day
We gonna have a good time
And no one's gonna take that time away
You can stay as long as you like

这两天晚上睡不着，一直在回忆高三的事。。而且是诸如数学周五早自习小条测之类的琐事。。
是不是真的老了。。

To find out the definition of Wi-Fi, I searched the wikipedia,then I found this:

Bluetooth and Wi-Fi both have their places in today's offices, homes, and on the move: setting up networks, printing, or transferring presentations and files from PDAs to computers.

Bluetooth

Bluetooth is implemented in a variety of new products such as phones, printers, modems, and headsets. Bluetooth is acceptable for situations when two or more devices are in proximity to each other and don't require high bandwidth. Bluetooth is most commonly used with phones and hand-held computing devices, either using a Bluetooth headset or transferring files from phones/PDAs to computers.

Bluetooth also simplifies the discovery and setup of services. Bluetooth devices advertise all services they provide. This makes the utility of the service that much more accessible, without the need to worry about network addresses, permissions and all the other considerations that go with typical networks.

Wi-Fi

Wi-Fi is more analogous to the traditional Ethernet network and requires configuration to set up shared resources, transmit files, set up audio links (for example, headsets and hands-free devices). It uses the same radio frequencies as Bluetooth, but with higher power output resulting in a stronger connection. Wi-Fi is sometimes called "wireless Ethernet." Although this description is inaccurate, it provides an indication of its relative strengths and weaknesses. Wi-Fi requires more setup, but is better suited for operating full-scale networks because it enables a faster connection, better range from the base station, and better security than Bluetooth.

One method for comparing the efficiency of wireless transmission protocols such as Bluetooth and Wi-Fi is spatial capacity, or bits per second per square meter.

When you get a girl to chat with..And no big things to complain about..And no easy accessment to the net..And two or more books to read..And no heartbreaking incidents..And no new CDs to devour(new word,I use it to describe my excitement of enjoying the masterpieces..Not meaning I'm a plastic eater)..And some friends keepin' writing nonsensical words on their blogs..And the Hollywood  shit-like blockbusters to watch..And my new fxckin' so called hi-tech cellphone to play..And the "sleeping 12 hrs per day" project to work on...
How can I find time to killing time on my blog?
And what else reason can still drive me to keep my blog?
ps.To my girl: I make the link to your blog once you tell me the address..But later I deleted..I'll tell you why..Hopefully you don't get angry..But if you do,please forgive me..

Nobody, I suppose, have found that the title of my blog WAS turned into "jewkiler's web diary",including me.
I SWEAR that I've never changed this title by myself..
So...Is it for the immense development of the AI of this blogengine or some guy from the ms corporation happened to see my blog and change the title?
Maybe both...
Then, I have to tell the machine that "It's no more than a name.."
And you'll never know how this immature boy ,an anti-Nazism guy get this name for himself...

Oh yeah, yeah
Oh yes
Everything gonna be alright

Oh yeah, yeah
Now when I was a young boy
At the age of five
My mother said I'll be
The greatest man alive

And now I'm a man
I'm over twenty-one
You better believe me, baby
And I'll say, we can have lots of fun

I'm a man
Huh huh huh huh huh
A man
Oh yeah

Oh yeah (oh yeah)
Oh yeah

The line I shoot
Will never miss
And when I make love to you baby
You just can't resist

Ooh, ain't that man
Spelled "M"
"A" child
"N"

No "B"
"O" child
"Y"
That spell mannish boy

I'm a man
A man
I'm a man
I'm a man

I sittin' on the outside
Just me and my mate
I made the move
Come up two hours late

Ain't that a man
No "B"
"O" child
"Y"
That spell mannish boy

I'm a man
I'm a man
I'm a full grown man, baby

Oh yeah, oh yeah
Oh yeah, oh yeah

All you pretty women
Stand in line
I make love with you baby
In an hour's time

I'm a man
I'm a man
Oh yeah (oh yeah)
Oh yeah (oh yeah)
ps1.Recently I kept tryin' to throw light on sth. really confusing which annoyed me for several days..So I haven't even login my blog these days..
ps2.Someone told me sth. about the so-called GRE..Actually it confused me..Bought a word list of GRE..And it far beyond my current level..
ps3.Set a new label in honor of the R.S.

不是没有追求。。也许是没有实力追求。。
不必羡慕什么，每个人都有自己的风格。。
这么多年，一直过得不错。
改变？ 还是算了吧……

7.12   11p.m.
Le premier baiser avec Ma
7.14   5p.m.
收到T.H.U.的录取通知书

I dont mind
I dont mind if you forget me
Having learned my lesson
I never left an impression on anyone

So now you send me your hardened regards
When once youd send me love
Sincerely I must tell you
Your mild best wishes
They make me suspicious

I dont mind
I dont mind if you forget me
Having learned my lesson
I never left an impression on anyone
The pressure to change, to move on
Was strange
And very strong
So this is why I tell you
I really do understand
Bye bye

I dont mind if you forget me
No no no no no no no

You can only be strong for so long
It may not eat you but it will beat you
So this is why I tell you
I really dont understand
This time

Rejection is one thing
But rejection from a fool
Is cruel
Rejection is one thing
But rejection from a fool
Is cruel
And I dont mind if you forget me
I dont mind if you forget me
听莫大爷的歌一定要看歌词。太有意思了。。

Meeting my girl in front of my school..
Greeting my father and mother "in-law"..
They treated me as a kid...
Quite strange,though i'm a kid anyway..

Watching the Brazilian raping the Chileans in the "Copa America"
Having lunch in a Guangdong restaurant..
Too nervous to leave a good impression on them..
Oh..That's my style..that's my style...

Holding my girl in my arms...
Kissing my girl on her cheek..
Feeling it's sooo sweet to be a "kid"..
And so sweet was the reunion that I'm already starting to look forward to another one...

The Dark Side of the Moon

Produced by Pink Floyd
Released March, 1973
Recorded in Abbey Road Studios between June 1972 and Junary 1973 Cover Design by Hipgnosis

也许你永远也不会发现，但它们确实存在着。 ——引子

暑假生活的无聊让我决定干些有“意义”的事情，我开始翻听那些我曾经熟悉抑或不熟悉的专辑，我说不清楚这张算是我熟悉的还是不熟悉的——里面的每一首歌，我都听了很多遍，但我却始终没弄明白平客要说些什么。
Pink Floyd是个伟大的乐队，而The Dark Side of the Moon是他们公认的最伟大的专辑，关于他们的介绍网上随处可见，而我在这里要说的，是我的感受。

阴郁的起始——Speak To Me
"I've been mad for f**king years, absolutely years, been over the edge for yonks, been working me buns off for bands..."
"I've always been mad, I know I've been mad, like the
most of us...very hard to explain why you're mad, even if you're not mad..."
在逐渐加强的心跳声中，隐约飘出这么一段话，夹杂着尖叫，冷笑……我想起了《狂人日记》，但他是一群麻木者中的“疯子”，而歌者，却是一群疯子中的“疯子”，为什么会疯……接下来，就知道了。

给自己一个喘息的机会——Breathe

Run, rabbit run.
Dig that hole, forget the sun,
And when at last the work is done
Don't sit down it's time to dig another one.

坦白地说，我不知道“呼吸”在说些什么，是"Leave but don't leave me"的无助还是"You race towards an early grave"的绝望。最终，我选择了上面那一段。工作的压力，压得我们暗无天日，压得我们无法呼吸，压得我们眼看生命如此空虚地流逝却无能为力。高中刚过，就要为自己设立更远大的目标，这难道不是"mad"吗，为什么不给自己一个喘息的机会？因为"All you touch and all you see is all your life will ever be"。

不可预知的恐惧——On the Run

"Live for today, gone tomorrow, that's me, HaHaHaaaaaa!"

我不知道有什么能比Air Crash更能诠释这句歌词，当你要传达一种概念时，lyrics并不是唯一的选择。

无可阻挡的流逝——Time

"You are young and life is long and there is time to kill today.
And then one day you find ten years have got behind you.
No one told you when to run, you missed the starting gun. "

开始的钟声和闹铃声已经能说明一切。这是我最喜欢的一首歌，因为它的旋律，因为它所谓“励志”的歌词。当然，我从没有停止过kill time。然后，我渐渐发现也许是我误解了：它强调的只是一种大众的生存状态，荒废青春，恐惧死亡。"Kicking around on a piece of ground in your home town,Waiting for someone or something to show you the way. "很可惜，我们总是难以寻找到自己的方向，方向都未知，发令枪，还有什么存在的意义呢？
"the lyrics of the song deal with Roger Waters's realization that life was not about preparing yourself for what happens next, but about grabbing control of your own destiny (he attributes his earlier ignorance of this to his mother's obsession with education)."Wiki上的这段话，也许说明了些什么。没有引导，那么，就走好眼前的路吧。无法停歇，那么，就珍惜眼前的路吧。

恐惧？恐惧！——The Great Gig in the Sky

"And I am not frightened of dying, any time will do, I
don't mind. Why should I be frightened of dying?
There's no reason for it, you've gotta go sometime."

音乐和Clare Torry那个如死前哀鸣般的背景音背叛了这句歌词。尽管是每个人都必经的状态，但，谁又会一点都不恐惧呢？当哀鸣变成呻吟，呻吟变成喘息，是结束的时候了。

物欲，永无休止——Money

"Money, it's a crime.
Share it fairly but don't take a slice of my pie.
Money, so they say
Is the root of all evil today.
But if you ask for a raise it's no surprise that they're
giving none away."

音效的运用在这里达到了与音乐本身合一的境界。我不知为何要把这首歌与象征无休止工作的Breathe割裂开，或许，无休止的物质追求，已经比死亡更可怕了？钱是不是root of all evil，谁说得清呢？我倒想知道，如果不是钱的驱动，这张伟大的专辑，会诞生吗？呵呵，以钱为武器攻击钱，也许只有艺术家和闲得难受的人才会做吧？

战争 分裂——Us and Them

"With, without.
And who'll deny it's what the fighting's all about?
Out of the way, it's a busy day
I've got things on my mind.
For the want of the price of tea and a slice
The old man died."

我们总喜欢拉帮结派，文化、语言、肤色的差异让我们很自然的分割，而其实在每一个有多个人存在的小集体里，都会存在分裂，以及“战争”，最早的战争是资源上的，我们把能和自己分享资源或者值得和我们分享的人视作"us"，而今，精神上的分裂，也许比物质的分裂更彻底，不同政见，不同信仰，不同阶级……也许和平总是暂时的，而战争，或者说竞争，才是永恒的。

Lunatic，唯一的清醒者——Brain Damage

"And if the cloud bursts, thunder in your ear
You shout and no one seems to hear.
And if the band you're in starts playing different tunes
I'll see you on the dark side of the moon."

所谓的狂人，也许就像瘸腿村里的正常人一样，清醒，却要承受嘲笑。到这里，我想，月之暗面，也许是常人无法企及的境界，一种不被理解的精神状态。

蚀——Eclipse

"There is no dark side of the moon, really. As a matter of fact, it's all dark. The only thing that makes it look light is the sun."

终于到了谢幕的时候了。我不知这最后一句是什么意思，我猜：也许每个人呈现给别人的，是你阳光下的那一面，而月亮总有阴暗的地方，阳光，也会有被地球遮挡的时候，人的本质，连他自己，都无法完全看清楚。《月之暗面》的主题到底是什么，我说不清楚，我听到了恐惧，听到了人性的丑陋，却也听到了希望。人的存在，便伴随着阴暗，有人性本身的阴暗，也有命运对人的阴暗，当我们把这一切都看清楚时，也许，就如Lunatic般，由清醒，变为癫狂。

我们听歌的时候，总想挖掘它深层次的东西，而实际上真的有那么多深层次的东西可挖吗。于是，牵强附会以致贻笑大方。我说的，只是我的感受，就像歌者在歌曲中融入了自己的感受一样，我也在听歌时融入了自己的感受。权当是一种尝试吧。

人数不限，性别不限。
愿和本人去影院看<Transformers>和<Harry Potter5>中至少一部的请留言。
要求：
带足AA制所需RMB
无看电影时说话（尤其是对电影本身评头论足）、吃东西等不良嗜好
能坚持2小时不睡着